~Sadism~

~Sadism~

I love you.
Best friends.
Loyal companions.
Would have died
For you.
But you know
That don't you?
You created a
Loyal bitch.
All of you did.
And I am
Left with the
Confusion,
Pain,
Agony,
Self-hatred.
I've betrayed
YOU.
I've gone against
Everything I was
Taught.
Lay down your child
On the bed.
Naked, scared,
Excited!
Biting, pinching,
Pulling,
Killing,
Loving, laughing,
Raping.
Rape of the mind.
Is that real?
We love you so much.
No one understands
Us like you.
You're our doll.
Dolly Dimples she said.
But love was there.
Love and pain
Mixed creates
The most loyal of
Children and bitches.
Who am I?
What do I want?
I don't know.
Do you?
You made me daddy.
You liked my nakedness
Didn't you.
Throwing ice on it.
Grabbing and pulling
And pinching and
Striking and screaming
And laughing and
Blinding and sickening
And heaving and
Dying.
We love you.
We always have.
You were so
Good to us.